[If this had been brought up earlier, Mondo wouldn't have been furious. Celes can't compare her situation to his at all - what he did was an accident and she purposefully had two of their classmates murdered, at least that was his understanding of it. But he's calmed down a lot here and though he does flinch in response to her words, he doesn't leave and actually gives some thought to them.]
...I was really glad when Leon showed up here because I thought "hey, someone who understands what I'm going through". I couldn't really feel the same about you 'cause y'know, Ishimaru.
[He ducks his head, staring down at the panda. It's an effective way to hide his face with his pompadour and something he's far too used to doing.]
I'll never feel at peace with that. I know eventually I'll have to go home and go through it and there's nothing I can do, but every little bit here helps. For every day I don't blow up when something would've pissed me off back then and for every time I can laugh a remark off instead of getting mad... it's a big help.
For me, it really helps have Fujisaki here. It keeps me on my toes, so I don't slip up.
[He pauses, evaluates his words, and then immediately attempts to explain better, looking a bit panicked.]
Ah-- shit, that's... I don't mean it like I've gotta be good for Fujisaki. I mean, I do, but it's not something I feel I'm obligated to do? It's something I want to do. I want to become a better person, no matter what that takes and no matter how long it takes. So I'll do everything I feel like I can do to make that happen.
[...]
Shit, that was a lot, sorry. I don't really talk about this, in case that wasn't already obvious.
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...I was really glad when Leon showed up here because I thought "hey, someone who understands what I'm going through". I couldn't really feel the same about you 'cause y'know, Ishimaru.
[He ducks his head, staring down at the panda. It's an effective way to hide his face with his pompadour and something he's far too used to doing.]
I'll never feel at peace with that. I know eventually I'll have to go home and go through it and there's nothing I can do, but every little bit here helps. For every day I don't blow up when something would've pissed me off back then and for every time I can laugh a remark off instead of getting mad... it's a big help.
For me, it really helps have Fujisaki here. It keeps me on my toes, so I don't slip up.
[He pauses, evaluates his words, and then immediately attempts to explain better, looking a bit panicked.]
Ah-- shit, that's... I don't mean it like I've gotta be good for Fujisaki. I mean, I do, but it's not something I feel I'm obligated to do? It's something I want to do. I want to become a better person, no matter what that takes and no matter how long it takes. So I'll do everything I feel like I can do to make that happen.
[...]
Shit, that was a lot, sorry. I don't really talk about this, in case that wasn't already obvious.